Losing control

The smoke was fuming in the gaze of the headlamps, the musk of burnt rubber and metal hung pungent over the air, as my brain regained awareness of the situation. Reality seemed like a dream that I needed to wake up from, as the policemen came running towards the crash. My thoughts were transfixed on what was to happen, and not what happened, for what happened was well and truly beyond my 'control'

I lost control...

Just 5 minutes earlier, I was tailing behind Danusha's car on the way back from Senanayake Junction. It was 4.00 in the morning, and dawn was still waking up, as a light drizzle wet the road. No cars on the road meant that my speed was a fraction above the absolute necessary. I could see the turn off a few metres away as Danusha slowed down to let me turn... And that was when the sands sifting through the hourglass stood still. I blacked out for a second, and the car skidded off the turn, the front left tire immediately blew up as my car nosed down tilting to the left. The steering wheel was shaking wildly at my hands as I tried to steady it. The car spun around a few times, crashed into several light poles, lifted itself off the curb and hit the fencing next to McDonalds. Stillness overwhelmed for a second, and reality gushed back in. Lord Buddha's spirit, the Dhamma, my father's love, luck and the seat-belt was what saved me. For I was now looking at our Corona that sat on the curb, a good 20 meters away, turned in the exact opposite direction to which I was driving. 

The policemen said I was lucky to have survived without a scratch, and so I was. 

Nothing objectifies the need to regain control of my life, than physically losing control, and dealing with the emotions that follow.

Seeking the sub-atomic, Forgetting the massive

I won't deny it. Hearing the news about the discovery of the 'Higgs Boson' was a refreshing spark, to end the monotonous string of news about murders, rapes and pillaging. This tiny particle held it's edge over the usual culprits in news worldwide on the day it heralded it's arrival. Many depict it as the opening of a portal to the unknown mysteries of the Earth, a revolution in the field of science and a victory to mankind. But if you ask me what I really think, I'd put it this way - A bunch of well-funded cranky old scientists have spent almost 50 years in search of a tiny blip on the radar that lasted for a zeptosecond (a thousandth of a billionth of a billionth of a second), and now that they've found it, the old hoots can die happy, while millions of human lives around the world, 1/10th their age die unhappy.

"Nothing" has never been more glorified in the history of mankind!

When the finest willow meets the leather

"We're all artists and we all have our critics. Luck, chance and destiny is all in your hands. No one else's" 

- Kumar Sangakkara